Seize the Moment

Seeing things as they are.

Is how to be happy. Or at least happier.

I'm so excited UnCabaret is live on stage again!
But of course part of me is like - wait - no
Is it ok to be excited about that?
Because of.
You know.
All of it.

But if there is one take away
From these past two years
Carpe - what's Latin for moment?
Momentus.
Which sounds at once huge.
Momentous.
Like a momentous decision or a momentous change.
Mountainous.
And also carpe moments
It also sounds
Like momentum.
In motion.
That enviable state of not stuckness
What you hope for a career.
A project.
A day.
The e motion
Of love.
Yes carpe momentus friends.
Because right now
It's usually not a whole day.
That's seizable.
And after two years of working on "So You Need To Decide"
I know that deciding can move things in a direction
Deciding to carpe momentus
Can shift the moment
Deciding to be excited - anyway.
Be happy - anyway.
Can make it possible.
I mean sometimes it doesn't work.
Sometimes there's just
Taking life on life's terms.
There's only so much choosing not to look
In a disturbing direction
You can do if you are awake.

Like yesterday morning.
I came upstairs for my 8 AM zoom yoga class.
The light was different.
It was hitting the wall above the stairwell just so.
In a way that made me look
And I saw the taxidermied deer head.
I mean I always see it.
But I don't always see it.

How I came to live
With a taxidermied deer head
Is a long story.
For another time.
But now here it is.
And what?
Donate, sell, dispose?
No good option.
It feels too hard. Physically.
But as I walked up stairs to
Seize the day on my mat
The daylight savings time different light
Insisted.

So there it is.
To remind me. #decisions
I mean we can’t remember everything right?
And the best way to ‘decorate’ is to fill your house with reminders.
Re-member.
Putting your self back together.
And so what does it exactly remind me of?
To look at what’s uncomfortable.
To appreciate being alive.
To accept life on life’s terms.
In some weird way to it feels like it is protecting the house.
And so I reminded that I do believe in protection.

There’s probably more but for now that’s enough.
May the new light shine help us see.
And even with it all.

So looking forward to that stage light.
Which somehow miraculously
Teases the funny
Out of this very momentous momentus.

xo Your Sunday Girl xo

Beth